Good Morning <3
I’ve woken up today, rather peacefully, with no sense of urgency but a clear motivation to start the day (said no millennial ever). But, yes, this millennial did say it, and I genuinely feel this way. Can I get a woo woo for using “millennial” just one more time!? Back to my dignified introduction …
I feel grateful today. I am struggling with my worries for how I am going to manage to not procrastinate on my tasks today, but I am grateful nonetheless. Put simply, I am thankful to be alive. But I have had to sit with myself this morning and coax my inner voice that I “truly am thankful”, because, for some reason, the thought following that one is ‘”but you haven’t finished a, b. or, c and things are not going to be okay.” How fascinating is this dichotomy of thoughts … created within just a second of time!
“If you don’t take inventory of your blessings, ingratitude will try to steal them from you.”
– Matshone Dhliwayo
There are days when I admit this is difficult, Mr. Dhliwayp. It is easy to recognize that you should be grateful but difficult to feel that way genuinely. Today is one of those days for me. It’s as if these thoughts are processed in my brain where the thoughts themselves rotate through a revolving door ceasing to actually pass through the door but continue to run around and spin and spin and spin.
Perhaps this is indicative of the human condition in which you must constantly strive for greatness. No, I don’t mean Spiderman level of responsibility and greatness (though that would be cool … remember, “with great power comes great responsibility Peter” …. okay, I digress). I mean, the greatness of your attitude and state of mind. I have no great advice on that because I am utterly unqualified. But for today at least, I want to acknowledge it. I want to send out the better vibrations out into the universe that I understand my privilege for being alive today and living well, regardless of my insecurities with my never-ending to-do list. That in itself is a blessing: to have the luxury of doing and thinking because ultimately this allows us to live and not merely exist. So, thank you for today. And sorry for the revolving door thoughts, I’m working on it the metaphor.
(395 Looks like WordPress won’t consider my onomatopoeia in the word count. Relax, I’m grateful today).
